hahahaha thanks

ok so i just got home and before i left my gma (moms mom) slipped out something about my dad i didnt know...so i was upset over that. until we went to subway and saw people and then into the movie which was sooo much fun seeing it agian lol. i was really glad to hang with earda and nick and dan and stuff who i never see. so i get out and everyones going to muddy cup and my moms outside ready to bring me home. i said come at 9 dont be alte so she came a half hour early and i had to leave when everyone else was stayin at the coffee shop. so we fought in the car about how much i hate everything thats goin on and its affecting me too much that i cant even stay longer with my friends. im so fucking pissed off.
and i have to go to utica tomorrow and guess what? my dads staying over too. thank god for cell phone ipod and internet.....
but overall i had a great time with my friends im just mad that it had to end cuz of stupid ass circumstances.

< Missed the 5:05 movie
< Got a ticket for tail light out going to 8:15 movie
< Broke headlight socket trying to change headlight

Blah

So the other night, I think it was Friday but I can't be sure, I wake up at 2 am and the t.v. in the living room was on. I walk out into the living room and there is Carsyn, my 2 year old. She had crawled out of her crib, turned on the t.v., put in an Elmo video tape and pressed play. There she was watching Elmo at 2 am, happy as a clam! Needless to say I've got my hands full with one smart little cookie!!!

My husband went grocery shopping yesterday and came home with little 8 oz glass bottles of Coke. He said since that was what TP drank, we should have some in the house just in case he dropped in unannounced sometime. Is he buying into my delusions??? hahahaha

<Very relieved that school is done for the week....it was too crazy this time.

<Can now breathe and walk around town and visit the record shop to obsess over Tom Waits with the sales(cute)guy who just got the latest release yesterday

^

<cooking up a storm.

<Still waiting to leave. I don't like this part of leaving at all. Actually I don't like leaving. LOL

< getting ready to bake pies for tomorrow pumpkin, coconut custard and cheese cake

<I don't know why but I feel really empty. I think things may be beginning to fall apart.

^Aw, hang in there. That's a scary feeling; it'll all work out eventually.



...SLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP. MAHHHHHHH! GIDDY.

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Originally posted by wake^time:
<I don't know why but I feel really empty. I think things may be beginning to fall apart.

I have that feeling too.

Tomorrow I'm spending Thanksgiving with the parents for the first time in four years. They just moved out here from Phoenix a few weeks ago. I feel sorta bad for them because all these years in Phoenix, no one would spend the holidays with them because everyone hates Phoenix so much. Now that they're in Colorado, everyone wants to visit. Unfortunately my sister is out of town so I'm stuck by myself with them. Would be fine if it was just my dad, but I also have to deal with my mom's nonstop chattering. She means well I know, but sometimes I seriously wish she had an off button!!!

Looking forward to Christmas because I'll get to see my 20 month old nephew!

< Just finished the 2nd track from my album

<I'm getting stuff ready for today. I'm making the mashed potatos and the deviled eggs..which I call angel eggs.

<I hope that things get better wake^time.Have a great Thanksgiving.

^Thanks to all you well-wishers up there. I really appreciate it. Can't wait to hear the record, Chi.
I was just frustrated because of this girl who I really like but I am just having trouble communicating with her and I think our relationship may be failing because of it. The problem with my last GF, though I ended the relationship, was my failure to communicate about important things, and I vowed that I wouldn't let that happedn again. And I feel like it's Deja Vu, like I'm again failing to communicate with this new girl even though I really like her. I'm just afraid I'm making the same mistake twice and I don't know how to stop it from happening.
<I'm just glad today's Turkey Day because it's my favorite holiday and I'm just gonna get my mind of this for a day and start trying to salvage my relationship. To whom it may concern: sorry about the above rant.

^ I hope everything works out well Wake^time.

< Just got back from the Thanksgiving Day Parade in Philadelphia. It was so much fun! Though my mom and I froze our butts off, we still had a really good time.

<wondering if the coffee shop is open today.

<would like to spend the entire day reading One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest, one of my faves.

< Thule is in serious need of help. Thule has gone absolutely barking shopping mad. I've bought so much shit I don't need. Advent calendar, ANOTHER bleeding dress (I bought two dresses to weeks ago) and just general rubbish....

On the other hand, my mum is happy as Larry with her Robbie Williams t-shirt that she bought at the gig in september. She left it in England, and has only just now managed to get her hands on it. She is sat in her chair, moving around so the fake diamantees catch the light, trying to blind me. My own mother, trying to blind me. It would probably be considered abuse in some countries, I'd say.

But I should add before I go that this is probably the last day of my life with a fully functioning face, as my (dear) mother has decided to use me as a test object on her beauty school clinical. I have (against my will) been put down for: facial, skin peel, eye-lash tinting, eye-brow tinting, lymph-note drainage massage, neck and shoulder massage, back massage.

I am scared......

< so weds at 4 my uncle dario and me went up to utica and i had a really great tiem with him on the ride up. we listened to the 2 songs off my cd i have over and over and just talked. and then i got to my gmas and my dad and brother showed up and i was really good with my dad and all and it was really fun hanging with my grandparents and stuff. and yesterday my grandpa taught me sudoku lol and then we left to go to my aunt cathys (the one who called me and tried to tell me i shouldnt be mad at my dad cuz his life isnt my business...still mad at her but we were ok) and me and my cuzin had to drive back cuz we forgot the sauce. and my dad was just a jerk the whole time. calling me names and making me really upset allll day, but it was because he was so nervous he didnt even talk to anyone. but i went for a walk with my aunt cathy and carla, then we all played pitch and bullshit for like 4 hrs. we were supposed to stay overnight but my dad decided we cant so we went back to my grandparetns to get my stuff and me and grandma just hugged and cried....i cant believe all my father is doing. i wasnt happy to see him but i thought he would be nice, but he hasnt changed, hes still really really mean. but before we left i put on the 2 songs from my cd and we all stood around and listened and everyone really loved it, so that was good. i had a good time with my family but my dad as usual had to ruin my thanksgiving by being such an ass whole to me......hes just nervous and feels stupid about what hes doing, but i no karma will get him soon..and i guess thats all that matters.
on a positive note, i cant wait till xmas break cuz im going up early and staying with my grandparents again and my dad will only be there xmas eve. and my dads familyi love so much and they're being so great to me, except my one aunt but she'll come around.....i guess thanksgiving was just different without my mom.